Have you ever done anything so STUPID that you can’t even believe it?!? Have you ever wanted to kick yourself? To be able to go back in time and shake yourself so that you didn’t make that one awful decision – didn’t entertain that one wrong thought?
Unfortunately, I have had this experience more than once in my life. There is a specific time that I’m thinking about right now, though, that I desperately wish I could change.
One Good Decision
Two years ago, my husband, Dennis, and I were at our highest weights ever. Dennis came to me and said that he had another diet plan he wanted to try. I remember being a little bit upset with him. We’d tried diets before and they hadn’t worked for us. We could lose 10-20 pounds, but then we’d plateau. And then the discouragement would set in. Being an emotional eater, I would find myself eating to try to make myself feel better. And before you knew it, I’d be right back to where I started (or even a few pounds heavier.)
Something about the way my husband was looking at me, however, made me agree to give dieting another try. I didn’t want to be a dream killer, after all. We started out following the new recipes and exercising on a regular basis. And we began losing weight.
I’m not sure what was different that time – but we stuck with our diet and we both lost 60 pounds in about 5 months time. It was such a wonderful feeling! I felt better when I looked in the mirror. I was able to wear those clothes that were tucked into the back of my closet – or buried in the bottom of drawers. I felt cute for the first time in a long time.
People’s reactions to our weight loss were varied. We had quite a few people who raved and told us what a good job we were doing. We had some people who were inspired by our weight loss and wanted to know what we had done so that they could try to follow in our footsteps.
But there was a third set of people who seemed taken aback by our weight loss. These people tried to convince us to have “just a small” slice of cake at various gatherings. They seemed shocked when we said that we wanted to lose a few more pounds. And one person even told me I needed to be careful about losing any more weight or I was going to look older than I was. Seriously.
That hurt. And those words changed my mindset. All of a sudden, instead of feeling good when I looked in the mirror, I started to notice some baggy skin on my neck. Skin I was sure made me look older. I noticed that my upper arms were floppier than they used to be when I was overweight. I started to wonder if maybe I had lost too much. Did I look old?!?
Once I started entertaining these thoughts, my resolve to eat right and exercise began to fade.
One Bad Decision
And at this critical time in our weight loss journey, we went on vacation. Suddenly, we were having to make choices about what foods to eat in various restaurants. We were still mostly eating on our diet – but we began to develop a taste for those fatty foods again. And the next thing you know, we were headed back upwards on the scale. It didn’t take long and I had gained back all 60 of those pounds that I had lost.
I can’t believe I let myself make such a foolish decision. And it all comes down to my mental attitude.
The statement “mind over matter” is so true. I know that I can psych myself up or psych myself out. I do it all the time. You won’t find a more focused person anywhere… unless I’m not. Have you ever been there?
After the Christmas holidays this year, my husband and I both realized that we were back up in weight to where we had started. We decided it was time to lose the weight again – and to lose it for good this time.
I’ll be talking more about that whole process in future posts. For now, I need to make sure my thoughts are in the right place. I need to be sure to focus on the positive.
I can’t go back and change the stupid mistake I made… but I can go forward and resolve not to let myself make that same mistake in the future. This time, once the weight is off I will be keeping it off!
Have you ever made a decision that you regret? Were you able to go back and correct your mistake? Did you identify any thought patterns which contributed to your bad decision? Please leave a comment below.